Learning to Breathe Again

Well, this is my first attempt at a Blog, so please be patient as you join me in this journey.

I've always considered life a journey, but I never imagined mine would be such a bumpy one. For those of you just "meeting" me, I lost my precious daughter, Sophia Elaine, to SIDS on January 7th of this year.

I'm still working on being thankful for what I have and have had in my life. I'm thankful for the best 4 months of my life that I got to spend with Sophia. I still get jealous when I see other mothers enjoying their babies. I still get indescribably angry when I see or hear about parents taking their children for granted or not doing everything in their power to protect and cherish them. But, I'm still going on somehow.

I'm constantly amazed that a heart can go on beating after it's been crushed so badly. I have many people to thank for keeping me going day after day (sometimes minute by minute). I thank my unconditionally loving husband and family, my faithful and amazingly patient friends, and a group of strong and courageous ladies who have also gone through horrible losses but have learned to help others with their experience.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, if I seem detached, bitter, or just plain angry, please forgive me... I'm still learning to breathe again.